Wednesday, November 10, 2010

La Familia

Family. What is family? Every family is so unique and dynamic and there is no family that is better or less than the next. Some families are small and some families are large. My family is small and when I say family, I mean the family I see on special occasions, not the family I see at weddings and funerals. I come from a household of four, my parents and then my sister and I. If I was to include my dogs, okay that'd be 6. I'm going to exhale the guilt I feel right now for not including my precious doggies in that household count. Going a little off topic here, but as I blog this I've got my puppy (3 years old) Lemon standing on the desk behind me, watching me, and the mommy doggy, Lexie, under the computer desk at my feet. I am so spoiled to have them by my side all the time, that I forget what it feels like to not have them around. I don't want to know that feeling. And I guess this is what it's like with our family. Every night after work, I know I'm going to go home and my sister will be in her room doing something artsy fartsy, my mom will be watching dancing with the stars, biggest loser, or so you think you can dance. And my dad passed out on the couch in the most awkward position, that everytime I can't help but think of how I could adjust his body so he can properly align himself to not feel achy when he wakes up to go to bed. I don't know a life other then this and the thought of anything other then this is not acceptable. I don't even open myself up to it. Where am I going with this? Our families are our roots, our ground, our foundation and there's nothing we can change about how it has all come about and how everyone landed in our families, but what we can do is accept what is and love each member with gratitiude for how they have contributed to our lives. In The Sacred Contracts by Carolyn Myss, she speaks about how before we all came down on earth, we all shook hands and signed a contract with the people in our lives to give to us or take from us, to love us or to hurt us etc. I signed a contract with my mother and father to have me at a young age and to struggle finacially, to then teach me all that they have taught me. The contract probably includes that we would butt heads for most of our arguments, and that in many ways I would be teaching them all that they need to know about life. It's such a powerfully spritual book, and quite a perspective Carolyn Myss has. Check it out.

Love and accept your families as they are, because you wouldn't be you without them. Cherish and bless them just as they cherish and bless you in their own unique way.

What is family?
Family is, looking in the mirror at ourselves.   


I remember sitting in a careers class at Brother Andre CHS and the teacher gave us a resume assignment. My mother had great experience hiring people and so I asked her for some help creating a resume. My strengths were listed as being punctual, a team player, and a great multi-tasker. So for the last 8 years I have been working on the multi-tasking skill and I have mastered it. Now in saying that, my body, mind and spirit has suffered greatly from multi-tasking. Multi-tasking is divided attention and when you multi-task ALL DAY LONG, you are never focused. So how can you achieve the things you want with great quality, if you're never really focused on it? On my current resume, one of my weaknesses are multi-tasking. My meditation practice has helped me with stilling my mind, clarity in my speech and focusing. My lesson is that  multi-tasking is no strength, it is my weakness (just as chocolate is) and without beating myself up over it, I'm grateful to be aware and I choose to do the things that assist me in focusing.
Focus on what you're doing and be IN JOY in the moment. Remembering that this moment is your gift.


I am divine mystery

On Sunday morning, I woke up extra early and it must have been because of the time change. I practiced yoga and spent some time in meditation, but before I began my meditation, I selected a card from an inspirational deck called "I am Divine"
I shuffled the deck, closed my eyes and drew "I am divine mystery" and it immediately instilled fear in me. Before even reading the little message that went with it, I was so fearful. I felt fear for what was ahead of me and it brought me to a dark place. I was so anxious to read the message that went with it, for comfort. The message was to surrender to what is. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a GIFT.
How powerful is that? It was just what I needed to hear. When you spend so much time behind the wheel, steering your life in one direction one day and then the complete opposite direction the other day, I can't help but feel fearful of what I am attracting to me. BUT what I do know NOW, is that right now is my gift. With this beautiful gift of another day given to me in great health, loving surroundings, and love for myself, it doesn't matter what tomorrow brings nor what history is. Our moment of power is always in the present moment. As I blog this i feel the need to express that I shouldn't be taking all the credit for this wisdom. I was given the affirmation "Your moment of power is always in the present moment" from my fabulous friend Michelle. Thanks Michelle :)

With every breath, I inhale love and exhale gratitude, for I am grateful for the love that fuels me in this moment.