I set a
timer on for 10minutes to lay down in savasana and I now feel so amazing. It has
been a go, go, go day and thank
goodness I took that time for myself before a Saturday night out with friends.
I haven't blogged for a while because I have felt that I had nothing, really,
to write about and while I was laying in savasana the reason came to me. I have
been super busy and at the end of my days I feel exhausted and when I am exhausted
my mind is weak and when my mind is weak, I have no mind power to push away
negative thoughts that stream in. I’ve been feeling negative, mentally, for a
while now and it’s amazing how rest, relaxation, time-out can shift everything.
During my rest (savasana), this is what came to me.
WAKE UP!
Wake up to
who you really are. In yoga we practice om,
which is the universal sound that means all
is one. The symbol om has a very
interesting meaning that represents us as humans in our dream state, living our
life day to day and moment to moment unconsciously while never truly awakening. The
veil that blurs our vision to what really exists around us; the veil of
illusion. Do we look at people and see who they are or do we observe how they
look and what they’re wearing, and form an opinion of who we think they are.
How often is it that we look into people’s eyes when they speak to us or more
so, how often do we actually listen to the words people say without our minds
wandering off into some other thought or opinion of what they are saying. It
happens to me all the time. And especially when I’m busy because that voice in
my head just says, “I just don’t have time”…now that’s bull.
Time, this moment,
is our only moment and so whatever time I claim I don’t have is bull. I only
ever have this moment in time, not the past or future and all my thoughts are
based on past and future unless I am consciously present and awake to what is
going on around me. I’m done beating myself up about being super busy; it’s not
working for me. I’m done beating myself up over not having enough time to
meditate and do yoga as much as I’d like; it’s pushing me further and further
away from making time to bring these balancing practices back because I’m so
focused on the fact that they don’t exist. And so they don’t.
Next thought:
If you’re
sensitive to people’s energy, then you’ll have to make an extra effort to
surround yourself with people that look you in the eyes and truly hear you. I
was reading about relationships a couple weeks ago and the book mentioned that
if we are not happy with a friendship/partnership then we must move/go. We
shouldn’t expect the other to change because we can’t change people; so we need
to change. That annoyed me!! I initially thought, hell no…I’m not going
anywhere….they need to go, but guess what…it’s me that needs to step away and
remove myself from what no longer serves me. And if I don’t then I need to drop
the complaining and just accept!! Wowza….that’s a hard one!!
So all this
stuff is part of waking up to our authentic self!! Om, om, om!!Doesn’t it sound like
something you want to get to later on, tomorrow, next month/year….or never.
HA! This is
life my friends…the journey to waking up to who we really are. The journey to genuinely
connecting with family, friends, and strangers. The journey to loving ourselves
no matter what we’ve done!!
Life is Good.
Life is Great!!
Namaste
T
